I DIDN'T PASS EXAM OF INTERMEDIATE LEVEL IN ENGLISH COURSE...

23 February 2014, That day was suck day for me because a exam result killed me. So why? When I started that level I had sured about pass level to next but everything haven't gone good. I knew this level was hardly and tired. The first episode of intermediate was good but I had got bad result. I didn't remember now but it likes between 59-62 points. So the first three weeks was ok but second episode wasn't good for me because In three weeks I had a lot of problems about grandmother,mother and other shit things. The first, My grandmother who had a heart attack and her childrens took her to hospital and when I was in English course, my uncle has sent me message on my mobile phone, he said; ''Ozgur! My mom had heart attack and we're going to hospital now!'' Also that day I had a progress test of Intermediate level second episode. It was most important but my brain was stupid and I hadn't known what can I do so I entered exam and I hadn't thought anything because my brain was other way and I done it immediately. Damn I can't forget  that day!!! Anyway. After exam, I went to my uncle's shop who wasn't there so I had need to keep an eye on him shop. Wait, wait and wait I had news from grandmother who had to stayed in hospital so between three and four days. Tonight my mom was a sick who had a bronchial asthma... She was always coughing and her face was like crimson. Now you can ask me, what's problem about English. I hadn't had a time for study and I had forgetten myself and I gotten full stress. Last week of Intermediate level, I had a final exam for pass to Upper-intermediate. I had studied hard 10 hours in a day and I hadn't slept! Friday we had a final exam and it was good for me and I was waiting its result. Saturday I was waiting for learn result but no one didn't call me and all day my phone was in my hand...! Today so Sunday, between 3p.m. or 4p.m. An officier of English course called me for explain my result and I was excited but she said me you got 51 on 100 point... When I heared the my result I didn't say anything... Ten minutes later I said; ''Oh no!! How can it!'' Shortly that moment I was dead and a little cried because I hadn't believed it. That week I had more studied and hopeful. Finally I didn't pass exam so I don't know what can I do now...!

STUTTERING...

Do you know what is the stuttering? Completely you know what i mean. So now I will explain this subject because this problem is like despair and it can be more dangerous for stutterer people. First of all I'd like to explain about my stuttering problem, we're ( so stutterer people) normal person, not different to other people. Just we have a speak problem when we start speak it can be difficult for us and it is undergoing. hard times because your opposite person don't want to listen you and they always say, WHAT DO YOU MEAN? COME ON! HURRY UP! etc...  They don't give you support and respect. About me, I'm 26 years old now and When I was a child, this problem had me killed and poor. I hadn't had friends because no one don't want to speak me so I had confused those days and I was crying everyday and ask myself, why people don't want to speak me and they're moving from me. I was alone everyday and it stills continuing. Many people say, this stutterer problem not important in the life because that's a easy problem but they don't know what are we feel and how we live with this problem. They were just talking...  When I was in high school we had a religion lesson this lesson is called ''Din Kültürü ve Ahlak Bilgisi''  One day teacher had told our class '' everyone will prayer to memorize'' I had scared because how I could read prayer also as loudly. We had one day for prayer to memorize and after lesson I went home as rushing and full stressly. I had memorized two prayer so next day it's reading order had came me and I rode loudly but as a little stammering. When read finish teacher said me, you have a speak problem so I give you a low score and I had shocked so I asked why teacher? What happened? He said me, sorry but you had to rode these prayers as regular. I was second shock but how can it!? And later I said him thanks. It was bad day for me but I hadn't cared. Now, I have some problems again like before things but I grew up and I don't care just I want to be happy. As last story about today, I had a job interview in a factory so I was excited because they invited interview second time and I said myself, ok! They accepted me but I thought wrong when I went to there I waited boss of that factory when he came looked my face and hey I know you we had talked 3 month ago and I said yes. Anyway we talked again about job and he asked me, did you learn English language? I said in the 3 month? This is impossible I said. he laughed and said ok ok. Finally he said me, sorry but you're a stutterer person so we cannot working with you... That moment I said again ''Oh no! This is not real!'' But it was real and he apologised me. I haven't know what I should say to him. I just smiled and said good bye him.

So, if you don't stutterer person, you never understand us and never know what we feel...